less than stellar music with no video
because I spent so much time endlessly optimizing and getting stuck redrawing bits that I previously didn’t realize were terribly drawn of the sprites that struggled to show up in the less than stellar video with no music that I posted last week, in a sadly desperate attempt to make them load faster because I am in that far too deep to re-do them all [again] but slightly smaller, that this is the only moderately interesting thing I have done since then that isn’t just something I already did.
I still write complaints, but mostly in scraps on twitter that I don’t have the presence of mind to reformulate into paragraphs. I really don’t know WHY I do it there because it puts off people who just want to look at my drawings, and they greatly exceed the number who have any interest at all in me as a human being with thoughts. But I also might resent that as if I am entitled to have an audience and so continue to dump thoughts out of spite.
but this here is an example of the sort of “tunes” that come to me now: mostly fragments of several notes that only just barely form a cohesive structure. The reason I couldn’t get along with people who praise the music for zelda 64, when I recognized it to be mostly dumb little 3-to-8 note ditties stuck together, when it had music at all. Thankfully I do not require anybody else to replicate those 3-to-8 notes and then hear them additional times in order to progress, and constantly. This sticking-together here in its present form comes to about 40 seconds, followed by the actual voice recording that I made the morning of June 30 to give myself a sense of what the tune sounded like for a hypothetical point in the future when I might feel compelled and also have time to run the composition software, which turned out to be the same day AND it doesn’t sound like anything at all, but I committed to it anyway since I put the notes on the grid one bit at a time and so was partway in before realizing it didn’t work. As always.
I have yet to listen to a majority of those voice recordings, of which there are HUNDREDS, and I worry that a majority of them are also like this. Because the tunes come to me while I am sleeping or attempting to, and then I attempt to replicate them with the dumb mobile that I keep in my bed before I forget, but my partially asleep mind does not always realize what music sounds like, or remember it even long to imitate it. and that is evidently important enough to me to risk a shortened life expectancy due to radiation poisonining from keeping a tiny computer that never turns off several feet from my brain for however many hours, and then only a few feet further away every remaining hour. AND sometimes hearing the noise come out from my mouth causes the notes I just heard to overwrite the ones after it that I theretofore had only imagined, making it impossible to complete accurately anyway.