a video compilation of animated icons, mostly (but not entirely) commissions, that I spent entirely too much time on irrelevant aspects of. The music is an acquired taste that you will probably want to misplace.
I had to stop doing commissions entirely because THIS really is what I have to show for it! As I have become more obsessive compulsive I have run out of time to do anything else. The only real animation I have done in a year is that irrelevant bit at the end.

a strange comic strip

initially this was the sixth frame. it reminded me too much of “reaction memes.” That is a picture that somebody with no sense of humor posts in an effort to indicate the opposite. I like those people even less than furries, when they aren’t furries.

This one was funnier to me and more like something i would actually do when frustrated but i could not get it to work. then i went back to it and made it work, even though i had already posted the other version on some websites. But it still seemed like it went against my actual intent, which is to show confoundment rather than contempt. Then i looked up my scripts for the first, unproduced strip about a conversation between these two (in that one the non-pathetic character is based on multiple people) and realized it actually calls for an angry reaction so this might suit that better. Although I know from experience that trying to incorporate an old drawing into new material consistently takes longer than just making a new picture, the way I do things, and i already spend ages on that!

This just seemed rude! –It does not even say hello. Of course in reality it would type “howdy” which was no longer available– But also too mopey. The revised dialog is more truthful, probably, even though the end result is meaner. Hence the need to reduce the amount of unfocused spite in the last frame. Way too much thought and effort for something this dumb. I wondered why I would publicly post a strip implying that I don’t greet people and immediately complain about my life. I complain about my life because I don’t have anything else to talk to about with the people who ask me how I am doing and do not see any point to lying and claiming to be fine. If that was my only other option I would not respond at all, which is also rude. So I ought to put that in here. It seems unfair to the actual person this is, on this occasion, solely based on, who probably did have good intentions, and in fact was the sole person from the science fox crony cult to acknowledge me after I was edged out of that, But the net result of this and similar relationships was, by 2016, not positive. In fact ironically somewhat emblematic of the overall set of problems. Not exclusively of how people treated me, but also of how I clung by a thread to a system that didn’t work for me and kept pulling myself back into it, with ever diminishing returns because of course the former supporters I scared off through my increasingly regular outbursts of frustration were not coming back.

Viewers who commented still managed to misconstrue this comic strip as nothing beyond me complaining about pornographic fanart, like I think that demeans the characters. No I don’t care about fanart in GENERAL. If I was just going to list all the things I thought were gross and boring about furries I would have gotten much more specific than that and wouldn’t have wasted four frames before doing so. The POINT is that I resent having my material treated as if it is more maladjusted than a huge collection of odd behaviors just because there isn’t a community for mine. I suppose I could have gone totally abstract but again this is based on real conversations from years ago, exaggerated somewhat to seem outwardly as unpleasant as I mentally interpreted them. Don’t aspire to much since you’re unusual without being in a normalized unusual person club. Maybe we even addressed that I took issue with that, but the feeling of being annoyed at it lingered more prominently, in addition to some other typical exchanges which made this course of action seem more justifiable.

Ironically the person I am griping about in the comic here claimed to particularly enjoy this series and probably got the idea better than some others, but the comic’s goal if it has one is to help me out of this box and the whole furry mess is part of the box. Even though I have to explain what they mean afterward, it is a harder to miss prompt for the providing of explanations than just words without pictures.

I have regrettably much more text on this topic! And since I also have more comic strips on the topic that text may even be seen eventually!

page 28 of part 3 of this. More extreme expressions than usual here, a few of them justified. These imps think they are constantly in peril.

I feel like it is cheating to not draw dumb creatures in the windows but none of the windows here are visible enough for me to use window poses that I have not already used recently. “recently” in the sense of the last 15 pages, not necessarily the last three years of real time. I am reserving the right to show Squirb in full at another occasion and have it not be immediately apparent who that is, so showing just a scrap of it in the pertinent space here seemed undesirable, and i do not know what it looks like yet anyhow.

Two more 100×100 pixel animated icons, for Malkaiwot, showing Mallorie Koopa, who seems to be adept, possibly overconfident with unusually-sized carpentry tools. And also Goshi, who is purple. The official version that I post on other websites will have horizontal non-dithered background lines because they were requested when I showed this alternative but I am keeping the alternative for here in honor of I think I use those horizontal lines too often and also I uploaded it here before I asked Malkaiwot’s opinion on it. I tried vertical straight lines and they look awful.

These will be last such icons for a while, I think. The one on the right (or the one underneath depending on your view resolution) works better, even though i spent much less time on it. It works better probably BECAUSE I spent less time on it. I wish could say it was because I knew spending less time on these things was the secret to doing better with them but I am simply tired from not doing better!
Gosh there are five colors on the red side and only four on the blue side! Ordinarily such asymmetrical oversight would be unforgivable!
Elaborating on my reason for not accepting more general offers is not effective in my current state, so it might be better to wait until I am no longer thinking about it to think about it. I spend too long articulating depressing things about how I spent too long making dysfunctional things.

For the time being, it is better to get nowhere making a few big projects for myself than a load of small ones for other people that will not make a great difference in their lives.