will 2025 be better? I set the bar low in 2024 to guarantee it. In fact it may be lower than I expect since the video stops hard at 1 minute whenever i try to test to make sure it uploaded properly and that i didn’t accidentally break something right before the final save.
I will probably be having that stupid music echoing in my mind for the next few days. the dopey sound effects help a bit but I only added those in the last few hours and almost certainly in excess.

janiaury 2 updorf:
the video is done-ish but the higher bit rate or whatsit picture is taking substantially longer to render which means I can’t check it and notice stuff wrong with it as quickly and then try again and notice more stuff wrong with it. indeed much of today and yesterday was spent dealing with capturing moving bits of “watch out for dopes” in Open Broadcasting Software, and it still looks bad. I may need to revert to recording gzdoom at 1024×768; (I tried 1280×720 for this) and rendering at 1280×720 (this time was 1920×1280) until some point that will not occur when I have a more powerful computer since I am not interested in windows post-7 and having a non-portable computer is not an option under my general circumstances. fiddle deep feep. for everything else I do it is plenty capable enough.
obviously i don’t need the final render size until it is the FINAL render but part of my personal broken process is continually thinking I am done when i am not. It doesn’t work if I KNOW i am not done.
and at this point it doesn’t reduce the render time much, if at all, since I have used larger input files that in the past due to my expectation of exporting larger, so they still struggle to get squeezed through the mixer.
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january 1 2025: ah noip i definitely did not finish, but it turned out to only be about 87% my fault
if I work on something for too long, the task becomes somewhat abstract and i forget what my goal is. in this case it is, or SHOULD be, to show what i already made, not to show anything new. but since i put new stuff in it previous years, i thought if I can’t put something equally interesting in here it should at least be equally new, and then i have spent too long on that even though it isn’t impressive, just new.
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december 31 2024 updeh: my year end video definitely will not be ready before the year handover, and far too much of the contents are garbage, but it would be culturally inaccurate otherwise.
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a rather annoying picture featuring characters that I historically have not exhibat here but also have decreasingly put effort into distancing myself from, considering their regular, if hurried appearances in my last few year-end “art” videos and being directly visible in a recent pathetic snake comic strip based on an absurd event that might have featured different heap leaps of logic than it did if I had still cared about hiding them.
As I have mentioned in the past, and which is still true: my “normal” characters are agendered, not male; gender doesn’t necessarily exist where they come from, and neither does christmas, so my winter-themed images lack specific allusions to it. People assume those beasts are male since they have been conditioned to see male as default in the absence of any specific labels, and I do not take enough actions to distance those creatures from normal expectations. And i surely do not help that perception with this mob of heavily stereotyped figures. However I have created the problem of pictures of them existing and this one is almost socially acceptable despite that and I have nothing else new since I have set to assembling my year-end video (which will, as before, featured hurried glimpses of these leg-emphasizers) so there is little sense in not using it. Likewise, my previous areligious winter gathering pictures are presumed to be christmas themed, but that is not a problem I invented. Or if it is, I do not remember it. It may even be the case that I have received money for pictures featuring half of these characters, which isn’t necessarily true of individual drawings of my once regularly-appearing weirdos. And it would be more if I included similar “characters” here that only got drawn once. Which doesn’t mean it is right, but does prove that I can get away with it. The me of 2006 would be ashamed, but the me of 2006 also could not drive a car and assumed it would be famous by ten years before now doing what it was then doing, and was just as likely to be told it was sexually attracted to something that it wasn’t and unworthy of life on account of that by sociopaths sometimes not even over the internet.

12-7-2024 i have made this dice matter far too complicated. maybe i should just post the graphics!
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12-6-2024 i am doing something with dice that I thought would be ready within the fifth of december but that did not occur
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a commission drawing for division71 (from reddit of all places) in which a roommate (who might be called magikdragon) stays behind and abruptly transforms and eats a bunch of snacks, and then becomes transfixed on a fishtank.
I do not totally understand but it was within my capabilities to draw. I was also asked to treat it as four separate compositions, hence the file size is much larger than usual and the detail level possibly looking especially mushy when scaled down

I absentmindedly titled it “snackin’ dragon” and am not sure if I named it after the worrisome arcade game “Snacks ‘n Jaxson” or the totally horrid unlicensed nes game “Tagin’ Dragon” but neither way is it good. Also the internet is so full of people with no value to their lives who deliberately seek out and record themselves playing the worst video games, sometimes not even poorly, that there are plenty of pictures available of both and thus I do not need to put any here, mercifully. I need only say what is necessary to get through this.

life is complicated enough!

no sir, I do NOT

11-29-2024 oh flops I forgot to update this two days ago
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a questionable flying beast has a new slime it would like you to try

a long time ago I completely disregarded and forgot about this ugly monster sprite in dragon quest 5.

more recently I noticed the 3d version from the playstation 2 remake, and tried to draw one, and then the picture went screwy so i added some slimes to distract from that, but then they went screwy as well. And then this week I needed a website entry but was too mentally drained to prepare one, and so instead tried to force out a completish version of this drawing and pass the mental drainage on to someone else.

i wonder why these slimes are always professing their lack of badness, and I now must consider if it is because of the profound horridity of dope slimes.

you should have thought of that before you were blue and perpetually smiling! about 17 years before, by my reckoning.

it must be said that despite all that went wrong with Tecmo Secret of the Stars, at least its slimes own their badditude and don’t try to emotionally manipulate me with their facial expressions, even if they aren’t sure what color they are.

While this dragon quest 6 remake slime APPEARS to confess to being not good, it STILL has a BIG SMILE, as if it THINKS it is good, and EXPECTS me to reassure it! I shan’t! It also self-narrates its own sound effects. Verily this slime is awful.

In which a gang of weirdos annoy a perpetually morose person by smiling

I recently learned not only that Pierre Gilhodes had gotten made a Goblins part 5, he had a kick-starter for Goblins 6 and it bothered me that I never made an elaborate piece about this series despite taking inspiration in one way or another from its strange attitudes and art work for just about 30 years. I remember that I memorized the pixels on fingus (the one riding a bubble) and replicated it on school macintosh computers back before they had internet or microsoft paint would save files that apple computers would read. I stopped after realizing people didn’t recognize the character and thought I was drawing little monkeys but I have had this garbage deep in my mind for a long time and it needs to be released, that is the point. Similarly inappropriately big smiles have found their way into many of my drawings.
There is probably more context to be supplied but right now I want to prioritize getting this posted so I have website piece at the top which doesn’t mention trumpDRAP well maybe next week.

good gawrd he is literally putting sycophants from tv and the internet into his government. I didn’t think he would. He really is going to be worse than last time. Kids being obnoxious on social media and stupid forums aren’t all that important.
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i have heard that birds are jerks

this might be my least popular upload in years. presumably in part due to it not communicating my opinion on its message well, or even the
message at all, and also that i posted it during one of the most discomforting election days that I can remember. I almost didn’t want people to see it since I was so dissatisfied with the result, but then I also disliked when fewer people than seemingly average reacted to it.
Maybe its meaning would be more clear if i drew the birds like the three stoogers, since there were actually four, but I don’t actually like the stooges and i don’t believe they are known for assaulting women.
maybe the message itself: all organized religion has this at its core has baked-in lack of appeal. I kept making pieces like this since I was annoyed by the support (not enough to matter, only enough to be noticed) I had from racist, misogynist creeps who assumed I shared their viewpoints since I complain about some of the same stupid garbage as, presumably, whatever higher-tier idiot they take orders from.

it took this one (same person, different icon) until last week to realize I’m not being ironic or dog-whistling when I reject his anonymous insincere klanny memester values.

I wondered who this person was and I saw it using a particular ugly horrid arbitrarily racist “reaction” picture, like 30 times in a short period against different people in petty arguments, and I really didn’t want it, or anyone similar to it, thinking I was on whatever they think their “side” is but I didn’t want to directly engage with it either.
After I wrote that, the person in question saw it and has insisted that my remarks misunderstand and or misrepresent the behavior. Maybe I am just too old. Most of the people putting forth the snarky racist culture though are plenty older than me and know exactly what they are doing. Whatever variety there might be among his fans or what they get out of it, Mr. Stone Toss himself is a bad guy.

^{pardon me, you aren’t a white supremacist, you just believe people who don’t have light-colored skin are intrinsically inferior to you}
And that was months before a deranged child-leg-fixating sex-cyber-stalker whom I want even less to engage with used the exact same insult against me, even. I can however change what topics I prioritize among the numerous undrawn comic strips I already have little scripts for.

of course I have complained about Stephen Colbert trying to reinvent himself as an unmistakable democrat party and perceived like-aligned media shill, even changing his signature glasses to underline that he is boring and “network” now, especially after idiots who took the act seriously threatened to cost him money while he was still on cable, but “thankfully” I do this for free. Although unfortunately I also do this for free so no pro-shill sponsors are encouraging me in any direction.

how can you be shocked? trump got elected before. T won with a wider margin, the first time he actually got more votes than his competitor, but you also have both people who won’t vote for a woman AND people who won’t vote for a non-white person contributing along with the usual reasons any 0-integrity criminal slimemound gets elected to office. Unfortunately,

that is America so how can we? Don’t disregard that even when T lost clean he did it with over 74 million votes. This year the democrat party forced Joe Biden to quit the presidential race over media nitpicking his ability to look good on camera, replaced him with a candidate people hardly know anything about and who comes across as insincere, while continuing to ignore the most prominent genocide of the day, against an established career dirty trickster that for whatever reason a massive quantity of the populace seemingly tolerates the tricks of, some even enjoying it, and most importantly urinates standing up, even if directly into a diaper at this point. They went with the crook they trust to be utterly untrustworthy at the expense of someone else in their favor.

And I can find humor in how extremely stupid this is without making telling people that they are stupid in the nastiest, least constructive ways possible my foremost passion in life

Tintin-related commission for relaxingdragon.bsky.social in which Rascar Capac, he-who-unleashes-the-fire-of-heaven, gives a brief demonstration of his abilities to a pair of bewildered onlookers.

initially one of my recurring fools was requested to be in the chair, and subsequently this purple one was suggested, and seems to be handling the situation with more decorum than most of them might.

in fact just over ten years ago I drew this same character in a similar scene also borrowed from a tintin book. I may have done a better job then! however, I appear also to have drawn an awful creature known as “nemitz” into the background which utterly disqualifies it. Maybe that is why I seemingly never mentioned it here. But sometimes that’s just how things are! The world is a treacherous place!

Especially da worlda tin tin. an’ me! wuf!

a commission drawing for Draco Nihil. the task was to recreate something like an unused box art design for the video game “doom 64” with characters that are more reminiscent of mortimewde stapleton meepmire, nemitz, elpse and a dope. this has no relation or compatibility with my gzdoom matter.

i can say i understand why that box art was unused, but not why somebody would want to pay for such a substitute to be produced. nonetheless someone did and now it is your problem
i am far from an expert on the matter but i suspect the original artist invented many of the muscles whose details i have attempted to replicate here

thinking about this brought me back to the “40 worst rob liefeld drawings” page which i apparently have looked at before since I recognize more of them than I should, but last time I wasn’t aware of elon musk and was fascinated this time to see how many liefeld characters seem to have his same tight squinty botoxy face

gosh i didn’t even KNOW he actually had botox. i just thought: this looks like someone who has something wrong with his face that is probably his own fault because he has enough money to buy luxembourg. How does anyone have sympathy enough for this scumheap to interview him about being disliked for doing shallow things to try and make people dislike him less?

elon musk is a lot like rob liefeld himself in that both were talked about around me for years without me having any reason to know or care who they were but they eventually became my problem anyway. I suppose I should be glad to share that problem with more people than dopes and eight squared.

as usual I must warn you that clicking on this will lead to a bigger version on which the text may be legible.

back in august I mentioned a “documentation/abuse forum.” some time after that I posted a comic strip without an explanation. It was MOSTLY inspired by the same thing as this one, then I built the rest around my frustration with that. I wanted to stop thinking about it but I still did and then this one came about, which is more direct, though still possibly hard to understand. I cannot explain it concisely, either. Even trying to explain why I can’t explain it concisely isn’t concise, so maybe I will try again later. Or ideally I will forget about it this time.
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october 28 2024 addendumb: It has come to my attention that the person this was mostly about was banned from that forum over attempts to photographically prove its own biological womanhood to other users several days after I posted this, but presumably utterly unrelated to my having posted it since no one legitimately perceived me a target who deserved to be stalked at length, just abused for a few moments and tossed away. But for all the ungrounded garbage written about me, I was never actually kicked out of that septic tank! I could still go back if I wanted to! But why? They ban the people who most fully embody their own spirit of hateful pettiness. Who can you trust if not the ones as evil as you are? Not only is it a nest of voyeurs and vipers, the vipers are cannibals.

busy week, almost forgot

i hear “go to disney” said casually regularly and it bothers me, much the same way as “google it” does. I don’t like brands replacing bits of language, even if in this case the brand has merely replaced a reference to its own branded attraction. it still means language got stupider through the actions of boring complacent people.

whenever I see or hear the phrase something about it seems nefarious, possibly due to early life exposure to the terrible but ubiquitous 198x “Ghostbusters” video game that commanded players “GO TO ZUUL” at some point, the whole while various ghosts have also been going to zuul and presumably strengthening it. I never actually knew how to play it or if not going to zuul in a timely fashion made a difference but I remember being worried about it when watching other people play it.

the apparent long time owner of one of the websites that I post drawings of became dead recently. immediately afterward word spread seeking to hold him up as a singular creator and savior of that website and by extension all furry-dom, even though mild investigation reveals he did not create the site, gave preferential treatment to zoophiliasts and [accused] rapists, and did not spend money particularly well. a fundraiser was quickly started ostensibly to pay off his medical bills and look after his mother but was largely concerned with covering the website’s substantial, and often suspicious expenses. it became more suspicious when a day after nearly doubling the requested amount of $75000, the fundraiser jumped to over $200,000. the person running the fundraisers was a former spouse of the deceased owner, known to have cheated on him with other parties and for starting numerous fundraisers to cover her own personal expenses. And then once this is paid, by community members, will they have communal ownership of the website? Probably not!

All this “evidence” of trickery is circumstantial but nonetheless it led to me creating this image. the site’s owner willfully used a character similar in appearance to the crucified one here as a self representation on the internet, and it even appears on the fundraiser page. curiously its official reference depicts it as muscular but the owner and especially his sycophants seemed ultimately to prefer the morbidly, ironically obsese version. The atrocious american medical system is frequently blamed for not prolonging the man’s life as it should have, but unfortnately his own habits, encouraged by those sycophants and possibly his own roommates, most certainly exacerbated the severity of those medical issues.

I didn’t personally know the person; I saw him from across a room once in 2012 and didn’t think I had any reason to try and get his attention. Prior to his demise I never observed anyone I knew have anything positive to say about him, though I probably haven’t dealt with any of them since 2012 either.

at first I used a generic central character, thinking it was in bad taste to use the dead mans’ real character, but the whole thing is in bad taste and the character itself isn’t real so I ought to commit to it.

If I had thought it through better I might have had the reptilian facing the other way, both so that the carpenter would be nailing in the correct direction and so an additional character could be shoving a hamburger into the reptilian’s mouth, though that might have needlessly confounded the issue. That seems like I’m saying “boy he SHORE was fat!” rather than “you fetishists encouraged this man to endanger his health just because you get off on it.” And that isn’t even necessarily fair since they got off on the character being fat, not the man himself. As far as I [want to] know.

I included loose depictions of the website’s official mascot and official unofficial mascot as if to blame the website itself rather than real people. Although sometimes I feel like nobody I read about in association with these things is real.

this is not quite the game of thrones followup that I was expecting

captain dope deserves only your scorn and derision! it is NOT a real captain!

unless if by “married” you mean “infuriatingly smiled at for an indefinite period” captain dope has no power, much less authority to assist you.

exclusively for the purpose of annoying me, nemitz replaced the bottom of this boat with a screen door and then rowed unwelcomely toward me while smiling.
as to HOW nemitz replaced the bottom of that boat with a screen door, which surely should be beyond mitz capabilities, I know not, but I do know that were it a useful thing to do nemitz could not have done it. when nemitz is around stupid things just HAPPEN.
including captain dope. I had hoped to never see captain dope ever again. Perhaps there is still time not to.

just two days ago i noticed the furnace in the basement here said “granby” on it, which reminded me that nemitz once said “eestgranby” and that I even called mit out on the deed.
the very idea, the absolute audacity, for it to even be plausible that nemitz would DARE declare “eestgranby” in my presence is itself unforgivable.
potentially but not necessarily forgivable, me attempting to integrate leaf shadows for the first time ever across the front of snikpel (angry creature at fore of boat) several minutes before posting this.

why would you name your steel tank company after a nemitz quote unless you were producing military grade tanks because you wanted to remind yourself to shoot nemitz with them?

i do not remember clearly but evidence seems to suggest that i used the word sequence “as more time elapses” and thought elapses looked like elpses and so i drew one and then more time elpses.

the main problem with this is that elpse is acting like nemitz usually does in these pictures, coveting or presenting something stupid while smiling at someone, usually me, who has no need for it. Does that one at the lower left REALLY think that *I* think that *IT* invented clocks? I am NOT fooled! And gork that clock is so huge and awkwardly labeled that inventing it specifically is nothing to seek praise over! Truly unfortunate that the most reliable way I can think of to prevent time elpse from smiling is to introduce a time dope, but then that would become MY problem as well.

the robot variant seems to have first appeared, though not necessarily exhibited anywhere, in 2010ish after I encountered this web page while seeking, I can only surmise, bootlegged elpse content. I have no recollection of drawing it but it showed up when I sought out the sketch for the more recent time elpse event. Thankfully due to having animal-style digitigrade feet, elpse’s legs cannot accommodate boots. I did once draw, on paper, an elpse standing, possibly in a pose like the one with the clock here, beside an enormous boot, while a rotund business person offers “I would buy your big boot” and the elpse simply says “NFS” with a BIG smile, arrogantly assuming that people who aren’t on the internet know that NFS means “not for sale,” and it is extremely stupid but fortunately I do not have a way of text-searching old sketch books so that picture will probably never show up here. for rootbie’s sake, elpse, NOBODY is ever going to offer you money for that dumb boot EVER again. TAKE the offer NOW.

I was trying to draw a picture of my mother for the mother’s day occasion but I screwed it up and did not finish in time. I am still am not done but this is the general “idea.” I was concerned enough about it to seek approval in advance of putting it on websites. I had also pondered replacing the baby with a fish but as I had already drawn the baby when I thought of that I asked about that also, and was told that I should keep the baby. It seemed to me later that the baby wanted spaghetti, or maybe lo mein, or maybe nothing if that looks like nothing.